Are you experiencing stealing, killing and destroying happening around you? Then you know there is a good chance that there is a nasty thief at work in your life. Sometimes it is simply because we still live in this messed up world. Other times it can be because of other peoples choices and sinful behavior…or sadly maybe even our own. The enemy will use these challenging moments in our lives to then whisper words that are meant to painfully tear us down and keep us fearfully immobilized. I believe his favorites are condemnation and confusion.
You need to know that condemnation from the enemy and conviction from the Hopy Spirit many seem similar as you are first going through your journey. In reality, they couldnt be more different. Condemnation will fill you with depressing, dark, hopeless and destructive thoughts that will hold you to your past. It feels like you are useless, life is pointless and there is nothing else to lookforward to except the end. Conviction from the Holy Spirit feels optimistic, light, hopeful and promising. It is uplifting, and leads you confidently into your future, It is a begining that shows a much clearer direction of the next step to take on your path.
The enemy can surround you with confusion, bringing you deeper into oppression, darkness, and fear. The harder you attempt to break free the more ensnared you become in his evil trap.
Thankfully the Holy Spirit brings discernment, clarity and illumination. No matter what happens throughout your day, your spirit is filled with His calmness and hope.
When it hits you, the condemnation or confusion, and trust me it will, I want you to literally STOP.
Stop any and everything immediately.
move away mentally and/or physically.
Calm your mind.
Turn to prayer and RUN into God’s presence.
Then breathe deep and slow as you then quietly listen for His voice.
So…this has been my life for the past few years…spending time just sitting on uncomfortable furniture, with a (hopefully) good book in hand, hanging out in various waiting rooms, wondering if this will finally be the last one. Will this doctor finally give me the answers I am needing to find? Fun, fun, fun!!! Not.
When you know your are unhealthy, even the doctors know, and they can’t figure out why…you are perpetually stuck in waiting rooms, lots and lots of various cold and impersonal waiting rooms. For me it is a room of anxiety. Questions run through my mind endlessly here. Will this doctor need more blood? Do I have more blood to give? How many more tests? Did this one graduate honestly wanting to heal others or just to make mountains of money? Do I have to take more medicine I am allergic to? We already tested for that, why again? Yay its not cancer! Then why do we have to remove it? Yeah, not the most uplifting conversations are dancing around in my noggin during these periods of wait. Sadly, I now often have little faith that this health situation I have been living in can be fixed by men or women of the world. I think only God has the answers I am looking for and I might only get them when my life here on earth is over.
This has been truly a season of waiting rooms. Not just in the area of my health. The Lord has had me in areas of wait in other parts of my life as well. I have situations that I am SO ready for Him to step in and change. Oh let me tell you, I have told Him exactly how I feel these areas need to be addressed. Yet for some reason, He does not agree. I know He is entertained by my attempts to get Him to see that my way, to deal with an issue would just be so easy! No need for Him to have a plan. I got this. I got this!! Just smite this person over there, and maybe lift up this person over here…yeah, I know you are hearing Him giggle at me to aren’t you?
Chuckles or not, He has me waiting for my answers. I know that God is faithful, and I am called to walk by faith and not by sight. No matter what the ever negatively evolving, unstable or painful seasons that life brings. As a Believer in Christ Jesus, through times of joy and tribulation, God’s faithfulness remains consistent and steadfast. I must continue to put all my faith and trust in Him and Him alone as I sit here in my season of waiting. Life is hard, turbulent, challenging, and quite often, does not play into my favor. I admit that when things do not go according to my plans, I can become really apprehensive, but God remains faithful. Every single time, He is there, finding the better path for me. The one I didn’t even consider. It’s sometimes hidden just till I grow a little more or it is taking time being prepared for me to step into.
I am learning that waiting does have its perks. I am getting a ton of reading done! I had been so busy that I had not had as much time to read just for pleasure. I had forgotten how much it made me feel more like me. I am discovering books I never would have read. I have found little hidden bookstores in my community I had never noticed before. I have stopped in amazing coffee shops in neighborhoods I had never visited until I had an appointment there. There have been a few that make coffee that was touched by one of God’s angels it was so good. In my waiting I have found more people now are really trying to live eating clean and we exchange recipes. I am connecting with others amazing people I might never have had a reason to chit chat with if we weren’t both trying to figure out our health issues.
The best part about this season of wait is that I have had more time to be quietly speaking with God. He has been showing me areas where I did not even know my soul was in need of healing. Those moments really hurt. They were not my favorite, but they were intensely needed. He is the Great Physician and knows exactly what I need. My healing on all levels is always on His mind. He knows the best course for me. He never forgets where I am at, but sometimes just asks me to wait for a bit before He has me move on.
That leaves me here.
I am in the waiting rooms. The doctors waiting rooms and God’s. I know I will receive answers eventually. I must use this time to work on my patience and accept those things that I cannot control. Those are some seriously intense lessons by the way! Did not realize just how much I depended on my own control in a situation. Totally getting smacked with the realization that I actually have none. Absolutely no control over anything. It was all an illusion. Only God is ever really in control. I digress. Sorry, that is a totally different post.
Those of you who are going through similar trials of unexplained health, emotional or spiritual issues, know I am praying for you. One way or the other we will be healed, either on this side of heaven or in eternity, but we will be healed.
Love, it is an action, a way of living. When we love in our daily lives, we act for whom we love to make their lives better and run smoother. The cool thing is that serving them in that way causes our lives to run better too!
If we all lived with that mentality, to love others the way God commanded, the world would be heavenly!! It is the way Paul the apostle aimed to live. I want to strive to live that way, putting others first. Oh there are days that test me!! I do not want to serve anyone!! Not even the people I love the most!!
When I am obedient to God, and serve them anyway, not out of obligation but out of love…it does come back to me. It is amazing how it can then change my whole day!!
When we allow God in our hearts, He can then do a good work through us!! Then we can grow in our love for one another and we can experience joy!
I heard an amazing sermon that just keeps replaying parts of it in my head. It was from Matthew 14:25-36…when Jesus calmed the storm.
Here is the part that is keeping me up; remember how incredible it was that Jesus comes to His friends walking on the water, and Peter sees Him and yells out “command me to come to You.” So the Lord replied “come.” Peter threw his legs over the side of the boat, without one small doubt and began walking ON THE WATER to the Lord. It only lasted a little bit, but WOW!! That is how I want to be. Well, not the sinking in the sea part, but I want to see Jesus, listen for His call and then JUMP! No thoughts of worry or “what if” to fill my mind. I just want to be so focused on the fact that my Savior is right there in front of me and has a plan for me. Yes!! That is who I want to be.
I am truly in awe with Peter’s whole thought process that was centered on “You want me? You are going to help me do what the world calls impossible? Right on!! Let’s do this!!” At that moment, the enemy never even stood a chance. Peter knew Jesus. He knew as crazy as an idea might sound to his simple human ears, God was greater and WITH HIM ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. Any whispers of negative were shielded by Peter’s intense FAITH AND TRUST in the Almighty.
Is it just me or does that blow your mind too? Peter, who was kinda a knucklehead, still had tremendous faith! Impenetrable focus on The One. So much so that he SIS what we all would consider impossible! Imagine what we all could do if we really did have that intensity in our faith and focus!!
Oh Christian, I pray we find this powerful faith within ourselves today and MAGNIFY it immensely all for the glory of God!!
Being content in Jesus is a learned self sufficiency that brings us peace and confidence. It is the knowledge that we are adequate, we are enough, because we have Christ within us.
You know that thought just brought a smile to your face!
It is a blessing!!
We are good because Christ is in us!! We are good!! That is a joy that should shine fourth from us every single day!! It is proclaiming that Jesus is our everything! We will not worry because we know that He has got this. He has already prepared a way for us to walk through and prosper. Through any and every trial, He has been there before us and is there with us at that moment we need him most, ready to hold our hand.
HE HAS CHOSEN YOU!!
That should bring our hearts comfort, courage and the contentment that we all seek! If we can be content in sickness, loss, pain, abandonment, meanness, abuse, and so many other difficult/heart wrenching situations then the people who live without Christ will want to know why and how. It is an open door to conversations. Peace of the believers soul shouts volumes to the tortured.
Praying you are abundantly blessed today my friend.
Love, is a verb, it is an action, a way of living. When we love in our daily lives, we act for whom we love to make their lives better and run much more smoothly. The cool thing is that serving them in that way causes our lives to run better too!
If we all lived with that mentality, to love others the way God commanded, the world would be heavenly!! It is the way Paul the apostle aimed to live. I want to strive to live that way, putting others first. Oh there are days that test me! I do not want to serve anyone! Not even the people I love the most. When I am obedient to God, and serve them anyway, not out of obligation but out of love…it does come back to me. It’s amazing how it can then change my whole day!
When we allow God in our heart, He can then do a good work through us!! Then we can grow in our love for one another and we can experience joy!