take a little time

Our lives are so crazy rushed these days. I can’t tell you how many people I truly want to have a meal with and sit and fellowship growing closer together as spiritual sisters in Christ. It just seems like I have NO TIME. Speed is the enemy of true and trusted intimacy between all of us. Back in the days when Jesus walked the earth, meal time with your friends would take hours!! You popped by your friend Esther’s house with your family on a Sunday and girlfriend would go kill her best goat to make you a delicious meal. You would chit chat for hours while the fire was stoked and the goat was prepared, all the while figs, cheese and probably garlic hummus with flat bread would be put out for snacking. You and your family would be taken care of. You felt welcome and loved. That is a friendship!

When people back then brought a stranger to dinner they were still treated with the same kindness and generosity. I believe that is also known as HOSPITALITY. I think it is time we brought that back. I really feel that it is a lost art that is needed desperately today.

Yes, I connect with my Bible Study friends, and my ministry groups. That is usually for a purpose that we are getting together and I do love it!! I just want more!! I need more time for the important people. I want coffee time with my strong Sisters in Christ, women who fill my spirit. I want Sunday potlucks with a family or two, or more!! Families that will grow closer to Christ along with mine!! I want to go grab some spicy tacos with other married Christian friends. Double dates where we pray in public and talk about how blessed we are to have Jesus as part of our marriages!!

I am blessed. I do have these things. I just want more of them. More than one event, once a month. My light seems brighter and bolder when I slow down and get close to my Christian Sisters and Brothers. It is nice to even just sit around the joy that other believers can bring when they get together. Not even participating in a conversation, just sitting, breathing in the atmosphere, drinking in the love of Christ that fills the room. This is what my soul craves. More Jesus.

I want to work on my hospitality. I want my home to be a place of refuge for the tired soul. I want to have meals for my friends like Christ did, that take hours but recharge their spirits as they go back into the chaotic world we live in. I want and pray that nonbelievers can see the joy that comes from this Christian hospitality and have them know they are welcome to come and experience the incredible love of Christ with us.

Lord, make my home a place of true hospitality. May it be a place where people come and know that you are present. May meals served here, even if just coffee and muffins, be spiritually filling and strengthening of eternal friendships. Then when we go out on our own separate journeys I pray Your precious name always be given the glory as we serve You in our daily living. We love You Lord. Amen

He Said No

When He answers me “no” do I still put my trust in Him? When I pray and pray for an answer but still the response is not what I want does my faith falter?

If I am honest, I do get mad sometimes. The way that I THINK my answer SHOULD BE handled is not actually going that way. That is just my flesh talking though. God ALWAYS has a better plan than anything my limited and self centered mind would ever come up with. I am just a weary sinner focused on my own life and what I feel would make it wonderful in the now. God loves me so much that He does tell me no. He knows what my future holds and what is better for me. For example, He could not see that teenage me who was really in a dark place would have so much to live for in the here and now. Back then all I wanted was to meet Jesus and escape the ugliness of my reality. I saw Him as an escape, as a place of healing. I just wanted a place where I felt free from harm, emotionally and physically. I was tired of hurting. I was tired of existing. I wanted to be free of danger and I knew Jesus could take me to that place of peace. Simplistically, yes He is that, a way to safety, but He is not a place to hide.

He did save me. When I turned to Him he did not leave me to suffer alone. He took my hand and lead me through the darkness that was suffocating me. Jesus gave me breath, His breath to fill my soul and embolden my courage to continue to see light at the end of the terrifying cave of suffering that I seemed to be surrounded by. He showed me that there was a purpose for this path I was on. He took the evil, the pain and torment from my past and turned it into a starting point of growth that made me stronger to deal with what would try and destroy me in my future. It has not changed the fact that I still want to meet Jesus. It has changed the reason why I cannot wait to be kneeling at His precious feet. I am impatient to be in His presence so that I can worship Him, thank Him, and praise Him for all that He has done for me. I just want to be in His company!! Had God not told me “no”, I would not be in a place of total adoration of my Savior.

There were two paths in front of me. God guided me down the harder path. I did stumble and even fall on that path. Oh it did hurt too. I have got some nasty scrapes, breaks and bruises, but He was always by my side. He lifted me up when I was sure I couldn’t get up again. He helped me learn the right walk. He has shown me that there is JOY in the journey to Jesus!! Every stumble, every mountain I must climb and every time He lovingly tells me “no daughter, I have a better plan for you”. I will put my trust in Him. For He loves me more than I will ever love myself. My faith and my heart, will always follow and reside with the Eternal King.

Morning Friend!

I have my cup of coffee in hand.

I know it has been a while and we have a bit to catch up on!

 

Good-Morning-Coffee-PinkToday is: Wednesday December 30…New year’s Adam is today.

 

Outside is: BRRRRRR!!! If you are a Southern California girl like me, waking up to 35 degrees as you open the door for your husband to head off to work and your house is 59….this is cold!!!

 

I can smell:My coffee and the cinnamon smell of Thieves in my diffuser.

 

In the oven for dinner: We are having what I call Country Bake. I chop up veggies (in big bite size cuts) like potato, zucchini, onion, carrot, bell pepper and yellow squash. I put them in a large Pyrex and drizzle them with olive oil. Then crush some garlic cloves, usually 3 because I like garlic, and sprinkle with salt, pepper and paprika. Then I take my hands and just massage it all together. Cover the dish with foil and put it in the oven for an hour at 350. Your house smells delicious and dinner is too!! Best part about this recipe is that I can prep it early in the day and then cook it when I am ready. Kind of like a crock pot but it warms my house too!!

 

What I have been thinking about: Our world had this ridiculous fascination with youth. What happened to the beauty of growing older? My grandmother was beautiful. She had her hair done every week and did herself up for my grandfather every day. My great grandmother was beautiful. She was little and tough. She had lived through the depression and raised 5 children all by herself. My great aunt was beautiful. She was a single divorced mother before it was the norm. These women lived. They did not have facelifts and botox injections. They wore their wisdom. They were beautiful women with wrinkles and gray hair. When I think of a Titus woman, I never picture a woman of 20 or 30. I picture a woman of age. A woman who has lived and has insight into living a better life, either by learning from their mistakes or showing me how the right ones can be harder but the choice I need to make. God wants us to grow into Titus women, gray haired, wrinkled and wise.

 

The project I am working on: trying in the cold to restart some cuttings from a friend’s succulent plants. I would love to have more of them in my little yard…so far they are doing okay in the pots…but I do not have a green thumb. Let’s hope this is a project I will excel at.

 

Mood today: I am full of emotions. This past month has been a whirlwind of life changing moments. I have seen God perform a miracle. I have seen the enemy try and destroy it. I have seen a friend’s husband suddenly get his invitation to live with Jesus. I have seen this family take their sorrow to The Lord and praise Him for all the time they did have with this man and for not letting him die suffering. Through all their pain they praised The King continuously.  I have been blessed with a gift from a stranger that has touched my heart so deeply. I have no words for this gift. It was tremendous and I am unworthy. I was privileged to take gifts to a beautiful family who have a ministry for foster children. Little things that were needed to get a safe in between home for these little fosters babies were collected and I was so blessed to get to drop them off. Clothes, diapers, wipes, food, pacifiers, bottles, blankets and a whole tub of brand new shirts from TT& Twins were donated to make sure these little know how loved they are by people who do not even know them. So many more Spirit filled situations I have been blessed to see come to fruit. My cup is full. I am humbled by all the Lord has shown me and let me part of these last few weeks. It is more than I could ever have learned from books and more cherished a lesson than I can say.

 

What I am reading: God’s Pursuit of Man by A W Tozer.  It is awesome. It is asking if you are truly saved. Have you been conquered by God? Has the Holy Spirit filled you so completely that you are not yourself anymore? It is a small book but if you are reading to have it change you, it will take you a while to get all the way through it.  You can find it at my favorite book site Thriftbooks by clicking here.

 

School Stuff: Belle is memorizing her times tables right now. A friend showed us  some cute songs on YouTube that make it more fun.  Becca is way ahead in her algebra!! Michael…well he hates math but is persevering through. We are getting deep into our bible studies and focusing on reading and grammar. Nothing fun in Science or Languages right now…after the first I have a few fun ideas!!

 

Picture to share: My favorite mini in one of her TT&Twins vintage shirts!!phoneables 020

Just hanging out after MOPS with her momma looking cute!!

Love it!!

Have a blessed day my friends!!

Morning Friend!

Good-Morning-Coffee-PinkToday is: Thursday, September 17, 2015

Going to make this a quick post today, got tons to get started on!! Whoo hoo!

 

Outside is: Just a little bit of light blue creeping up over the horizon with speckles of white fluffy clouds lingering in the sky.

 

I can smell:My diffuser is puffing out mists of Thieves essential oil, so I have a bit of a cinnamon scent here in my room.

 

In the oven for dinner: We are having tacos!! I love tacos!! I am using left over chicken and then I am making some fish tonight to have some delicious homemade tacos with pico de gallo,white beans for a side and as an appetizer guacamole and homemade chips!

 

What I have been thinking about: I just got my new MOPS table the other day. God is so amazing. We did a random draw to figure out which girls would go to which table. Our table is so perfect for each other!! Really, these girls are all grouped together by God. It is amazing to see how as they get to know each other a little bit, that you can see how they have been lined up to help each other already. I am just so blessed to be able to be there and witness the greatness of God  at work in these girls!! I pray that I will be the mentor that they need and the Lord will bless me with the wisdom that each of these precious young momma are looking for. May the Lord make me the Titus woman that I need to be this year.

 

The project I am working on: I am going to start making some baby items for a friend who is having her precious little girl next month! I have the fabric and the ideas, now I just have to get in there and sew them together!! Babies are such a blessing I am so excited!! Oh, I forgot, one of the girls from my old MOPS table is pregnant and I need to make her a gift too!!

 

Mood today: I am just craving Jesus today! As I am typing I have a sermon playing in the background.  I have heard it a few times now. Very insightful. I just love hearing about Jesus in praise or in the Word.

 

What I am reading: I have been re-reading my Healing Oils of The Bible because I am conducting a class on them next month and I want to have all the information fresh in my mind. It is really beautiful to read about annointings and the importance of the essential oils the Lord provided for us. I suppose that means I am reading for fun not just to gather back up information in my forgetful brain. Ha ha ha!!

 

School Stuff: One thing we have been studying is the indoctrination’s happening in the great land of the United States. Really getting into studying some of the new laws the state is trying to pass too. I am sorry, but really? I think having boys and girls use the same bathroom, changing rooms and showers is way to Sodom and Gomorrah for me! You can go to privacyforall.com to read more about this if you are interested. Ugh it makes me sick all these evil laws they are trying to sneak into our state by our governor with his own agenda.

We have done basic studies too, biology, algebra, literature, bible, etc… I think history and bible are my girls favorites this year :)

 

Picture to share: My new MOPS mug :)

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So Cal Harvest 2015

How I forgot to post this I have no idea!!

Yes we went to Harvest again. I loved it as much as I did the first time I went!

This time was special though because we got to bring some friends with us :)

Super sweet girls who are friends of my daughter wanted to go and see what Harvest was all about and have the chance to see Phil Whickham live!

Major bonus to have Citizens and Saints performing there too!!

We got there early. It was hot. Oh my goodness, I really do not enjoy the hot at all. Nope, I do not. I was not going with a joyful heart knowing I was going to have to walk far and stand in the sun to bake to a sunny California crisp. God was so good though. Parking was perfect! Uber close to the Stadium and I could throw a ball (well almost, maybe with a tennis racket) to where we would line up.  Then He was even more good and gave us a spot in line in the shade, at least enough in the shade, that this is the first year I did not turn a delightful shade of crimson in line!! Whoo hoo!!

We were blessed again. Look how amazingly close we are to the stage! Man these girls got shade and great seats!!

076I watched the seats while the girls went out shopping for shirts.

You can’t go to a concert and not get shirts.

The stadium began to slowly but consistantly fill. It was a Friday night so we were not planning on there being a ton of people, but there were quite a few!!

What do you think? Not bad for a steamy Friday night in Anaheim!

I have no problem being wrong. I was elated as to the number of people that turned out that night!

079I love seeing so many people gathered praising God!!

Yes, I got teary eyed.  Especially when the music starts and I hear all the people worshiping the Lord, my cup runneth over.

083Oh my gosh, I forgot THIRD DAY was there too!!

Pastor Laurie was fabulous as usual. I enjoy hearing him speak.

I was hoping the girls we brought did too.

Then came the alter call down to the field for those who wanted to make the public profession of faith.  I was so excited to get to see all the people flood the grass in their new found joy when…”Would you mind if I went down to the field?” came a few seats down from me. ” What sweetie?” I asked. ” Would you mind if I went down to the field?” she asked again. Then another girl “I wanna go to. Is that okay?”

Oh dear sweet Jesus!! I had missed them accepting the Lord into their hearts!! I thought they were just there for the free concert!

“You know it!! Come on, I will go with you!” I cried. We all went down to the field, me trying to contain my emotions. I wanted to cry. I wanted to cheer. I just wanted to hug those girls so hard!! I had to focus on getting them to the field though.

087Here we are at the back of the stage praying with Pastor Greg. In the front again. Perfect for these girls!!

Two of the girls we brought gave their lives to Christ that night. The other girl rededicated herself to the Lord.

I let the tears flow and so did the girls.

Oh we got them their start bibles, we prayed and I hugged them so tight!!

What an unexpected blessing that Friday became in my life! You never know how God will work, but if you heed His calling, He does all the real work. We just planted the seed and He made it grow.

Then to wrap their night up with a bow, we got to meet…

090Citizens and Saints!!

Yes, it was an unforgettable night.

Thank you God for letting me and my family be a part of Your plan.

Morning Friend!

Good-Morning-Coffee-PinkToday is: Wednesday August 26

 

Outside is: Cloudy, muggy and there is no air movement. Ugh. Nasty weather!

 

I can smell:My delicious coffee!! It wakes me up and puts me in a better mood!!

 

In the oven for dinner: I have chicken on the menu for dinner tonight, chicken and salad. I am not loving the idea of turning on the oven for the chicken later…maybe I will have to bbq it!!

 

What I have been thinking about: Repeal SB277. I think it is a stupid law that the even more stupid Jerry Brown passed ON HIS OWN. I think it is just another step in the direction of socialism that I also do not support. I am my child’s parent not the government. I am the one who buys them clothes, cooks them dinner, educates them, keeps them safe, teaches them to be good citizens, NOT THE GOVERNMENT. When was the last time they stopped by and asked what my son’s favorite color was or how could they help him achieve his life goals faster? They have no business telling me or any other good parent, how to parent or go to jail when I have done nothing wrong to begin with. This is just their way of making parents breeders and them taking our kids and turning them into unthinking zombies to do menial tasks without question. People who question are a threat. So since I question what is in these mandatory vaccinations I have become a threat. I oppose aborted fetal tissue and metals getting pumped into my children because the government gets kickbacks when my children get a vaccination. I oppose it because GROSS that is so WRONG!!!

What about this idea.

To all my friends who are tired of hearing me talk about vaccines.

If you all sign the referendum to preserve parental choice and put this issue up for a public vote, I’ll quit posting about this. 1. just wanting to delay vaccinations-will not have a choice and 2.THE MAIN REASON – health for my children to be decided by me the one who birthed them along with my trusted physician- not by the government and big pharma. I want a choice to say no to a mandatory flu shot a choice to say no the chickenpox vaccine. A choice to provide them with nutrition and supplements to heal them when they have a cold or the flu. It is a privilege to be a parent and the government is trying to take that away. My children are not a number to me like they are to the government. They are my life. I live and breathe them. I demand a right to parent them and not let the CA government begin to strip me of my parental rights.

Stepping down off soap box now.

 

The project I am working on: MOPS!! I have been to a meeting with the other Mentor Moms and we are ready to go!! I am already lifting up my new table leader, that she will be inspired by the Lord this year. May He fill her with great joy this coming year! May she be a comfort and a blessing to all the girls at our new table. God is so good. He will place just the right girls together for us and I pray that she (the new table leader)  will be filled with wisdom and grace as this new adventure awaits us. May her life be blessed as she starts this ministry season.

 

Mood today: I am feeling anxious for some reason. I do not know why. Maybe because MOPS is starting soon? Maybe because I know I am going to get backlash from the whole supporting the repeal SB277 thing? I think not. That I am passionate about.  Off to put some calming oils on!!

 

What I am reading: Secrets of Natural Healing With Food: Wellness and Body Chemistry by Nancy Appleton

 

School Stuff: Let’s see, this week we have been just trying to focus in the sweaty heat. We have to get up early and start because it is to hot by 11:30 to do more than read for pleasure, take a nap or both!! We have been having fun learning about Gideon. Random bursts of “The Sword, of The Lord and Gideon!!” can be heard throughout the day, followed by giggles. Also in biology we have been studying hydras and medusas. You guessed it. We also have random bursts of “Hail Hydra!” since we are Marvel fans.

 

Picture to share: Someone is looking really patriotic!!

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Sunglasses: Littlesunshineshades.com

Hair accessory: @glchicshop at etsy

My Moments with God Today

God pursues us

We have all had those times.

You know them.

When you just feel, that you are just not there with God. I am not saying you are not praying or attending church or whatever. It is just a time when you feel less connected.

Those times ( it always takes me a while to realize that I am there) strangely enough, seem to be the times I am actually getting ready to really surround myself with Jesus. Weird right? It seems for myself at least, once I realize I am becoming less connected spiritually to my Creator, that I then spend so much time trying to refocus myself that I end up closer to Him than before I fell short. I do enjoy reigniting that passion of diving into The Word and craving every moment with Him, acknowledging every little blessing He bestows on my unworthy heart!

I have learned that the attacks or trials from the enemy can be joyous! Yes, he can make me feel low, ugly, fat, unlovable, unneeded and more. My God is bigger than that! He can turn all that into good things! Maybe I am fat? I am blessed that God has provided me with enough food to get chubby. Maybe I am ugly? Good! Then I will not be vain. Maybe I am unlovable in man’s world? My God loves me and that is enough. See what I mean? There is joy in every evil and hurtful thing the enemy throws my way. God is so much bigger than any dehumanizing thing evil has in its resources. God’s love puts things into the proper perspective. We run from Him feeling unworthy. He is there wanting us in our imperfection. He sent His perfect Son to die for our unworthy, unneeded, unlovable selves so that we could be with Him! Physical proof that we are wanted by the ultimate power!! He wants us!! As insignificant, unintelligent, undesirable and nonessential as we are, HE WANTS US!!

I am also a firm believer that when you are under attack from the enemy, as dark as it may seem, there is still light. There is someone I know who is under such a huge cloud right now. She is a young mother, pregnant mother, who is looking at not being on this earth much longer. The enemy throws such hurtful things at her.  Painful thoughts of who will raise her children? How will her husband handle this? How will her children not hold this against God? Will she get to hold in her arms this new life she has in her womb? This woman in question inspires me. Yes, she is under constant attack of “Why Me?” yet she still looks to the Lord and calls His plan good! She knows it will all be for His glory no matter what happens here on earth. She yearns to stay and watch her children grow with her husband, yet if it is God’s plan for her to come home to Him she is okay with that too. She is positive that God does what is right for the bigger picture. So she will not worry. She is okay with being confined to her home right now. She is soaking up every minute with her beautiful littles just loving them. She is happy she can share with them how incredible our Creator is everyday! She is delighting in the time she has cuddling up with her husband just watching tv. How amazing is that?! She is thankful for every moment that many of us take for granted. She found joy in her trial. She is sharing that joy too!  Such a beautiful soul she has.

On your journey through life today, if you are far from God or closer than you have ever been, let Him embrace you.

You are worthy, needed, special, wanted, beautiful, loved, necessary, important, amazing, wonderful , cherished, treasured, appreciated and so much more. Do not let anything take that joyful knowledge away from you. God loves you.

Thank you God.

Thank you for loving me.